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  Without You I Feel Like A Jigsaw With A Piece Missing......I Never Knew What It Was Like To Really Miss Someone Till I Lost You A Second Time......Sometimes I Feel That I Will Drown In My Own Tears......Even In A Crowded Room I Feel So Lonely Coz You're Not There......


 

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2008

 

 

 

 

It's that time once again,
My sweet gorgeous one,
When people go out for a meal, a drink..
And just have some fun.
A time to celebrate,
With those they hold dear,
To celebrate their special day,
Which comes round every year.



But, once again,
You're not here with me,
At least not in the flesh....
Not physically.
For this is the fourth birthday,
That we've spent apart,
The fourth since you were taken to Heaven
And 'smash' went my heart.



Many tears I still cry,
When I'm alone,
They have to be silent,
So they aren't known,
I've had much practice
Of keeping them quiet
We both know I have to,
Or there'd be a riot.



I wish you were still here,
Well...you know that my love,
You know all my thoughts,
You can hear them from above.
I do try, my sweet,
Not to cry all the time,
But it's still very hard,
But to cry's not a crime.



I feel you around me,
All the time,
You kept your promise,
When you said you'd always be mine.
You said you'd never leave,
And I know that is true,
For every second of every day,
I can feel and smell you.



Happy "Earth" Birthday,
My sweet, beautiful one,
How I miss you each day,
But what is done, is done.
Up to Heaven you went,
They needed you more than I,
Coz you've always been an angel,
But now you have your wings...
and can fly!
 

Copyright of Pebbles 2008

 

                                              
 
 A Letter For BamBam

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Dear BamBam,

Happy "Earth" Birthday my sweet. Today you would have been
56 years old. 56 my love...your magic number, 'our' magic number...
56 was such a special and important number for us wasn't it my sweet?
The number of your old house, where you lived when we first met as
children. And the house which you came back to see many, many times
after you had married and moved away. Little did I know you were just
across the road sometimes, just looking at your old house...and little did you
 know that I was still here, in the same place, opposite. It's so sad to think
that you and your brother even stood right outside my kitchen window
 with you recalling beautiful memories of us both to him and saying
"I wonder where she is now?"..I was there, behind the window...but
not knowing you were also there.

I miss you so much, I don't dwell on it all the time,
but it is hard. After we found each other again things were
 so different for both of us, we had our own way of living our
lives so that they were incorporated into each
others and it's been hard going back to living my life like it
was before I found you again. I miss so many things, even the text
you would send to me at 9pm to say "Let's put the kettle on and have
a coffee"...it probably sounds silly...but I do miss it. I know people
think we were crazy to have done everything together at the same
time even when living in different homes, but it was our way of
living our life together, as if we were married...eating at the same
time, eating the same meals, watching the same TV programmes,
going to bed at the same time...everything normal married couples
would do.  That's why people don't understand how hard it is for
me now that you are gone...it's so hard to go back to how it was.

It hurts so much not having you here with me as you were
and only in spirit. I say only in spirit, but some people don't
even get that, so I'm very lucky.

Oh..my BamBam...you know all what I want to say...
lol...you could always read my thoughts, and vice
versa....so you know what I want to say. lol I'll always be
your Pebbles...and I'll always be Rose to your Jack.
Little did we know when you made this song one of  "Our"
songs, what it would mean to me now. I feel I truly am living
out the life of Rose. When you made this song "Ours" it was
because of the distance which had been between us for all those
years from 1976 till 2000..when we were apart and not
knowing where each other was,  but both still loving the other...
but now the meaning is so much different to me. You are gone...
 just like Rose lost her Jack...I have lost the physical you.

BamBam...my heart will go on loving you forever!!!

I will always love you so very, very much.

I love you HUGE!!!

Your

Pebbles

 

 

 

 

 

My Heart Will Go On

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you, go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you, go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold you
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

 


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